The Gathering

I think I'm going to miss the learning experience here. It's like nowhere else in Singapore will we be able to get this type of experience. Nvm, at least I have HN to accompany me to do that on a regular basis next sem since I'm not going to be involved in any CCA in school for year 3. I'm going to do something I enjoy doing outside, rather than committing too much time to school.

I guess people always have the impression that we do stuff for our portfolio, but I guessed that crosses everyone's mind if you are going to get a scholarship. It's no longer restricted to just academic and I guess commitments can only be justified via transcript from recognized institution. I guess my past 2 years in FOC should be sufficient and it's time to move on and plan what's my next move. Of course, it's not just for portfolio sake, but rather it's the passion that keeps me going.

The first experience was memorable, maybe because I was deprived of the chance as I was too busy before I started school. And maybe because of that, the lack of social skill is what I need to pick up on. I guess it got to do with my personality at large. Personally, I don't feel comfortable approaching someone unfamiliar, which is similar to HN but different from Ed and JY. Sometimes I wished I could change, but I should be true to myself and do what I feel comfortable in.

Sustaining a relationship, rather than initiating one is what I saw in HN and myself, maybe because we had been talking more often recently, like bringing him to church and having a cell group with the girls when we are in China next year. I have to start learning the Bible in chinese and thanks to Hai Ning and Ann Ling for the translation, I bet it will be an enjoyable experience when we go to church in China!

But sometimes people takes kindness for granted, and I will always think back and reflect, maybe I should not be the one doing so much for friends. Maintaining relationship is a 2 way traffic, and I will be on the losing end if I gives in too much, I should be more selfish and protect myself and people does not always appreciate your kindness. And I guessed this happen during Anita's birthday too. It's like we got her a polaroid and she was SUPER HAPPY and SURPRISED! I'm really glad she likes it because I'm the one who proposed this gift haha. (I want all my friend to own a polaroid so they won't kope my films la, films very expensive leh... HAHAHAHA! So nice of me to get them a polaroid haha....)

But her boyfriend suddenly tuned up and said that he already expected we getting her a polaroid camera because it's so common. Please... get her one if you intended too... Such a remark is totally random and surprised us. Me and minru got the stunned face when we heard that and we totally don't know how to react. So people don't appreciate kindness, but oh well, Anita DOES! So that's the main thing. Who cares about her boyfriend.